When I Finally Said Yes

“I believe that half the trouble in the world comes from people asking 'What have I achieved?' rather than 'What have I enjoyed?'" -- Walter Farley

For the very first in my life, I feel an awareness.

I feel like I finally said "Yes." to my life.

I said Yes to my marriage.

I said Yes to motherhood.

I said Yes to dreaming.

I said Yes to passions.

I said Yes to self confidence.

I said Yes to saying no instead of overcommitting.

I said Yes to my husband instead of my computer.

I said Yes to my God.

I said Yes to surrender.

I said Yes to owning my mistakes and my shortcomings.

I said Yes to the effort.

I said Yes to myself.

I, for the very first time, feel like I said Yes to the role that has been here, all along. And it feels so warm. And it feels so right.

Saying yes feels like you're free falling.

Saying yes feels like coffee with an old friend after too many months apart.

Saying yes feels like the warmth of your child's embrace.

Saying yes feels like Mom bearing chicken soup on a sick day.

Saying yes feels like flowers at the door when you least expected it.

Saying yes feels like home, like you should have been there all along.

I am so grateful for the people in my life, to the encouragers, to the fireworkers, to the community, to the women in my life who ride this road with me, to my husband who is relentless in his pursuit of our love, to my parents who look at me with the purest love that could ever be found.

I am so grateful that they've watched me say No and stuck around to see me say Yes. I am so grateful they said to keep going. I am so grateful they said there is a light even when I thought I was surrounded in darkness. I am so grateful that I finally said Yes. I am so grateful for this role I've been given. I am so grateful to be a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend.

I am so grateful.

I am so grateful for this place I'll call home.

This week, I'm co-hosting with Madison and Rachel for the Community Brew link-up, which was created for bloggers to be open, honest, and vulnerable, and to build community with others. So, please share, sweet friends.

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